Jealousy

I remember when i was a kid. So stubborn kid. I dont know why im being jealous. I just want people to like me thats all. I want my family thinks that i am normal and okay person any other sibs. I was so jealous if people kept ignoring me and not telling me their stuff or secret. They all being aecretive if i am around them. I feel like im alone. Well.. they made me go madness. I cant stand their face of ignoring and whispering. I just want to get along thats all.. but what i do. I tell my parents some of their secret. Thats would childish do wouldn't it.

Came to teen. Getting bigger and mature. Mature la sgt. Skit laa skit je. Well.. getting jelous how they got workout for their life. Their Happiness. Their show off stuff. The most important thing is that your friend is having fun with one of my frienemies. I hate that part. I just gotta be nice to them and pretend. Keep faking it. But it got that sort out. Keep it cool and forget all about it. Thats just bring back to my childhood behaviour.

Nahh im just gonna be myself. Just friends watcha wanna friend but not to friendly. Just keep it cool. This sem.. ya Allah give me a chance to make it through and being so rajinn pleaseee i need those. Amin. Care a pray for me okay?

You're just jealous.

Met new guy

You know.. i realy have a quick replacement for my osaka. Well not mine anymore. I realy do. And im thinking it gross. I dont know why. Beacause you know.. i just break up with osaka by the end of a month. Someone is brave enough to replace osaka. Haha. Its a worth a try. I accept him sincerely. His not that bad. Well not my very first relationship but it was my first giving open heart easily.

Well lucky for him. 😌

How stupid

I always a change minder. I am a monkey. How come im always single. That is because u always change your mind to other guy. How am i suppose to live like this. I dont want an any embarassment. If one guy.. make a fool about me.. how am not embarass with.. ugh

What a life

Deceive

It hurts. Everyone around me deceive me for their goods. So am i. And i get what i give. But i dont understand why im decieving people.. i never do that to anybody before. I met him. Im not false him. But thats what life.

Full of lie.

Kat

As i was step in. You're right sis. This is not an highschool babe. You gotta be ready when its comin and you're gonna face it. Strong mental is not all we can easily perform.

My hugger is gonna leave this thursday. She just broke my heart. And apologies are accepted. What a disaster farewells. I hate goodbyes. Remember this is not an highschool. Not everybody stays in their position. Everythings gonna change.

I cant say ' dont leave me kat '. Im not herself to decide her doings. I have no rights. I cant force her to tell her life depression. I cant do anything. If i were her mother or relatives. I've could've be there for her. You're the best listener i've ever met. I never say goodbye.

Even when the night changes but your hug never change people into someone worst. She keeps me calm.

Life is not what you want. Its what you feel. Kat. I love you. And all i can say is be happy. Dont forget me and get well very much soon.

Till we meet again.
LOL: Mia.

Ghiduw

Rindunya dia Ya Allah. Ya Allah.. adakah bila aku melihat gambar2nya dan serabut memikirkannya, dia bkn jodoh kita? Aku kadang2 melihatnya tenang dan serabut. Org kata melihatnya tenang dia adalah jodoh kita? Lagi serabut lagi memikirkannya. Aku ingin kan bahagia Ya Allah.. adakah ini semua balasan apa yg aku da buat padanya.. Ya Allah ampunnilah segala dosa2ku Ya Allah. Ya Allah. Igtkanlah aku untuk igtkan engkau yg maha esa.

Bola tampar

Da lama tak main. Please give me a chance to stay in the court and play as much as i can. I wanna be spiker. Please please please.. be a good player.. jog. Train. Fit. Partner.